I have been saved from complete insanity with the help of a german band that my sister showed me and I'm addicted. Their music is providing me with the physical outlet for me that I've been looking for. My job situation hasn't changed much but life at home did calm down enough for my family to be at a mutual truce. The arrival of our new cat Coco has turned the house into a bit of a battlefield over money again. But I don't focus on that. I am finally 18 years old now, so the job hunting is improving a little bit. I may actually be able to get to cape breton after all. Overall my life has calmed itself into a quiet insanity that I actually like.